To properly reach a compromise between existence and mirage

Which occurs first, the existence of a fact or the idea of it?


I tend to sense the emergence of ideas more quickly than others do. In a more common term, I always have a hunch.
I’ve been saying that “it is a gift yet also a curse”, and it’s true. It is the strange, uncertain, mysterious gut feeling that resides in every great, or good, just to seem less arrogant, detective’s gut. You learn to listen to it, when it makes the most trivial yet truthful words echoing in your brain. But you cannot trust it. Because the gut feeling, like the thirst of a drunkard, comes and goes. So in the end you’ve grown to linger from being a paranoid to a prophet dramatically.


With this bi-polar intuition, how does one set facts from delusions? And when one neglects certain ideas, does the non-existence of the ideas consequently cancel the existence of the facts?


I have intentionally neglected the voice of one particular idea in my mind for quite a while, as if the situation itself would fail to exist without confirmation of the existence of its idea, so I won’t need to evaluate whatever the situation means to me. However I feel about this situation. And I get to keep equivalent distance from truth and illusions. It’s like a vaccine for whatever you guess right or wrong.


But it exists.


And I know.