So Long

It's been another long while since my last post..........
One is because I was extremely busy, one is that my life is still SSDD,
Same ole, same ole, without any tides.
(Captain!!!!!!!!!The ship is sinking!!!!!!Mayday!!Mayday!!Huh??!!)
Anyway,
My ship is like sailing in the middle of absolutely NOWHERE
and I'm runnin' out of fuel.
The ironic thing is, I've been trying so hard these days,
just to be more brave, more positive, stronger, and just a little better...
I guess I've failed.
(background music: Kaiser Chiefs--Sink that ship)
Every single day I ask myself to seize the day and live in the moment.
I try to get the best out of my life however it seems like I'm just idling it away.
I long for self-exile, but I'm trapped here.
I dream of far-aways and many other things, and the fact is that
I didn't even work hard to get them.
I'm just....quite........................
sinking.